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[WILLIAM KYLE MCCLAIN]

It was dark outside. The moon wasn't more than a crecent; a claw of an animal that hung in the sky. There was only a light wind that occasionally whistled as it slipped passed the buildings in their narrow alley ways. A muffled clock in a nearby appartment went off, signaling that it was now midnight, sharp. Only a few people walked the sidewalks, at least half of them stumbling drunk, muttering incoherently to everyone they passed, before running into a building wall or a light post.

Liam stood under one of said light posts, letting the light shine on him like a spot light. He brought a marlboro to his lips, taking a long drag from it, before letting the smoke escape, watching as it curled against the wind, and slowly disappeared. It was almost melancholy. He was addicted to something that wasted away so quickly, just like everything else. Even the one night stands. They never lasted. They weren't supposed to. But he was addicted to them anyways. How long would it be before he ran out of people he found attractive? Surely they couldn't be endless.

His mind turned over to a certain..... boyfriend of his. James Kennedy Macen. He was a quiet person, and Liam tried to crush him every time he could. Now was just one of those times. He had just gotten done hooking up with someone, and had called James to meet him here, on the corner of Highland and Main Street. Just like every other time this had happened, Liam was probably going to wave his unfaithfulness in James's face. He wanted to see him hurt. Quite honestly, Liam was probably sick minded. His goal from the begining was to crush James's soul. Eventually he'd probably dump him just to see if he'd bother chasing after him. Then again, he wouldn't blame James if he didn't chase after him. Quite honestly, Liam wouldn't put up with it himself!

He closed his eyes for a moment, taking in the cool air around him. This would certainly be an interesting meeting. He couldn't wait for it to start.

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[JAMES KENNEDY MACEN]

James' hands were shoved into the pockets in his warm coat as far as they could possibly go. He wanted nothing more than to disappear at that particular moment. He was on his way to meet his boyfriend, the honeymoon phase had been over for a while. The boy was a complete and total asshole, there was no other way to describe him. Liam was just a dick, he never tried to make James feel better, in fact it was like his goal in life was to make his life miserable. He honestly didn't know why they were together, he didn't know why he didn't just dump Liam. Probably because it would have meant his evil boyfriend had won, and James couldn't have that. He didn't want to lose to that sad human being and he still managed to like him. He still thought that Liam was attractive and he still thought that he was okay... sometimes. Sometime being the key word. He already had a feeling as to the reason behind this meeting, it was usually the same. Liam wanted to be a dick to him, and James was going to take it, like a total pushover.

His eyes were glued to the ground that his shoes hit in a healthy rhythmic pattern. This pair was one of his favorites, vintage looking lace-up, leather, they were wonderful and he enjoyed wearing them. James pulled his hand out of his pocket pushed up the thick black rimmed glasses back up his nose. The wind tossed his hair, it annoyed him normally but right now he didn't really care. He just wanted to get this over with so he could go back and cry in his bunk on the bus. He sighed gently coming to his destination. His eyes picked up the familiar outline of Liam's back. James drunk in the appearance of his hair, the line of his jaw, and what he wore. He walked over to where he was quietly and looked at him sadly. "Hey." he said quietly taking a final step right next to his "significant" other. James leaned against him a little, he wasn't applying much pressure against Liam, just enough to let him know he was there. He hoped that this wouldn't take too long, it didn't usually take long. Getting one's heart torn out didn't usually take very long, it sucked that it didn't hurt.

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[WILLIAM KYLE MCCLAIN]

Liam just hardly heard the soft 'hey' that James said. It was the way he leaned softly against him that he realized that it was James, and not simply the wind playing tricks on his mind. He turned his head to look at him, tossing the Marlboro into the ditch. He smirked and turned to James, his hand resting against the others cheek lightly. It almost seemed to be a gentle gesture, but people like Liam himself and probably James now, realized it was just a way to lure James into a false security, before he'd break the news with slight pride in his eyes. He did it every single time.

"I'm glad to see you." he said, brushing his lips lightly against James'. He was sure this was the sort of person that James wanted him to be. Who wouldn't want someone like this? Liam himself obviously didn't count. He tended to be too physical to be able to show those kinds of emotions. How different would he be if he were more emotional? He'd probably be able to make someone like James rather happy, actually. But as soon as he wanted to turn around and be different, something reminded him that it was too weak.

He moved his lips to James' ear. "I'm sure you remember Addison from my band, right? I hooked up with him a few hours ago." he said, before pulling back with a grin on his face. He wanted to see James' expression when he realized what Liam had done. And if James' expression wasn't what he wanted? He'd drag him along on a long walk, describing the night from meeting Addison there, and continuing untill James gave an expression that satisfied him. That, or yelled, cried, or did some ofther emotion. Indifference wouldn't work tonight. Liam wanted to make sure James was hurt. He wanted to slowly destroy his heart tonight. He loved causing James pain, as horrible as it sounded.

Of course, his forte was emotional pain. He couldn't make himself hit anyone. And he deffinetly wouldn't hit James. While it was his goal to hurt him emotionally, Liam was still attracted to James, otherwise he wouldn't be dating him. He refused to hit beautiful things, and anyone that he was attracted to? Deffinetly beautiful. There were only beautiufl people and ugly people anyways. Why should he concern himself by trying to crush someone who was ugly? Besides, James looked the best when he was showing some emotion, and since Liam was incapable of making someone happy? He chose sadness, anger. Anything would work.

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[JAMES KENNEDY MACEN]

James' eyes shut as if signaled by Liam's touch. It was comforting, nice even, but he didn't believe it. He knew that Liam would spring some unwanted truth on him and trying to get a rise out of him. It was the way it always went, this procedure would eventually be the end of him. James needed to find someone who wasn't mean to him, someone who actually cared about his feelings. This was the exact same scene that played every time Liam slept with someone different, the phrase "same shit different day" came to mind as he waited to hear what heartbreaking news his boyfriend was itching to tell him. Well it was almost the same scene. It was a different city, as is what happened on tour, but it was going to happen the same way. Today would be different, he wasn't going show him how much his infidelity bothered him.

"Yeah you too," he replied quietly as per normal, it was a lie of course. He didn't want to know what shenanigans Liam had gotten up to. It would have been nice that at some point in time Liam would be nice to him. James liked when he was nice, no matter how fake it was and how empty it was. It was times like these that James could pretend that he didn't date an asshole and he had a normal relationship. He kissed back gently. Liam tasted like cigarettes, James liked that although he had no reason as to why he did so. It just sort of happened, perhaps it was one of those strange ticks that made Liam really hot. James had never really met anyone who hadn't thought that people who smoked were hot.

He shuddered as Liam moved to his ear, though his words made his heart heavy and sad. James stayed true to his words and his face went completely blank, although his eyes looked obviously hurt and broken. "Oh. That's cool." he said shrugging a little, "Is that all? I have stuff I need to do." he added keeping his voice as steady as he possibly could. James took a step back, slightly disgusted that he'd kissed Liam after his latest hook-up. His arms crossed his chest tightly the cool air cut through his t-shirt. Well, it turned out exactly like he thought it was going to, he kicked the ground gently. His heart hurt, Liam did it on purpose, why else would he have said it so tauntingly? The only word that could possibly describe Liam legitimately was cruel and sadistic.

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Liam's eyes narrowed. That was all? Just a 'that's cool'? He wasn't going to get upset? He wasn't going to get angry? The only reason for this that Liam could think of was that James didn't actually like him. He would forget love all together. It was obvious. Someone who liked another person would get angry. They would get sad, and they would break up. At least until the other would apologize. James always acted like he didn't care. He just seemed to want to go on with his life. It was when he looked at James' eyes, he had to hold in a laugh. In his eyes was what he was looking for, and he wanted to draw that out more. He wanted it to be obvious.

Liam sighed, shaking his head. "No. I feel like I have to tell you about it. I want to get it off my chest." he said. If one couldn't see his face, they would have believed Liam was really sorry about what he had done. However, his face said otherwise. There was a smirk there, and his eyes glinted with amusement. He would tell James as much as he had to until he saw an actual change in James' expression. He wanted James to be sad, or angry. Anything other than indifference. He'd do everything he had to until James gave him something; anything.

He put his arm around James' shoulders, kissing his cheek lightly. "You'll walk with me and listen, right?" he questioned. Again, his voice was all too convincing. He wanted to give James at least half hope that Liam wasn't trying to just hurt him. That way, James wouldn't believe him for shit anymore. That way, if Liam was ever drunk and said something like 'i love you', he won't believe it. He had a feeling, though it was just a hunch, that James would believe someone, even if they were drunk. Then again, he didn't know much about James. That was his downfall. He needed to know more about what affected James the most.

"In the club, Addison approched me, you know? He had been drinking some fruity ass drink. That isn't like him. Then maybe it is. I have a feeling he doesn't care as long as it's alcohol." he said, nodding. Yes, every detail was what James was going to get.

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[JAMES KENNEDY MACEN]

James shook his head and forced a grin, "I'm sure it was great and you loved it. It's fine, it's not important. It's not like it isn't the first time." he said shrugging gently. He took another step back from him, appalled at what he'd do for a reaction. James really wanted to run away back to the bus right now, it was just as he'd feared. He wanted to cry and let all of his pain out then fall asleep still crying, perhaps dream of a relationship he could be proud of, one that made him happy. James knew that his resistance was futile, Liam was going to tell his story until he got what he wanted. He had two options, listen to it and act as if it didn't bother him, or be truthful about the matter and fall to pieces. The decision was a tough one, but he hoped that he could hold it together long enough to annoy his boyfriend. Showing weakness in front of Liam was just what he wanted and that just wouldn't do.

"Please stop." he pleaded in his quiet tone desperately, he knew how this story ended, it ended with someone in Liam's bed that wasn't him. He knew that Liam was going to win, he always did. James hated it more than Liam's unfaithfulness. The boy knew that he was not going to stop, it hurt him it hurt him so much. James pushed his hand off of him and pushed him away. "Just fucking stop-it." he yelled violently at his boyfriend. He took a shaky breath and stopped walking, he didn't want to hear anymore. James was at his limit. He swallowed and looked down at the ground. He could never compete with Addison, he was confidant and cocky while James was quiet and smart. Addison was more important, more famous, it was any wonder that Liam opted to sleep with him rather than James. He looked up to stare at Liam in the eye. "I don't want your goddamn details."

[/b] he whispered, cursing wasn't normal for him but he would drop the forbidden language when he felt it necessary.

He glared at Liam, he was mad although he didn't know where it came from. "Going to tell me how beautiful his dick was? News flash, I have one too. His body? Got one of those too." He said holding his head up high, his body wasn't manly, but it wasn't disgusting either. "But honestly I guess you're too cruel to even acknowledge that much." James was shaking now, the full force of his hurt, anger, and detest for Liam's behavior was displayed on his face without question. He was sick of Liam, sick of how he acted, and sick of how he treated James. "Like I said, not the first time. I've heard it before." he finished angrily.
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[WILLIAM KYLE MCCLAIN]

Liam smirked. He loved it. James' anger, and the laced sadness that he held within his voice. It was amazing. James felt anger toward him doing these things. That much was obvious. He had given up. He didn't want to hear it. He loved the slight adrinaline rush that it gave him. He loved the amazing look on James' face. He loved getting that stupid indifferent look off of him. And he loved..... damn. He never felt more of an asshole than he felt right now, as much as he loved getting that unemotional expression off of his face..... he felt like a total asshole, and he had certainly never felt that way before.

Maybe because after as many times as Liam had told James about his nightly activities, all of his other boyfriends had stopped caring altogether. James had ended up with the opposite reaction. He tried to seem like he didn't care, and now he was showing genuine anger.

His smirk was erased and he looked at James with seriousness. "I'm addicted to sex, James, and I'm not looking to recover from it, either. You want me to try and only use your body? Could you even handle it? Heh. If you really loved me you'd continue to chase after me anyways, wouldn't you? I've been broken up with before. I promise you won't break my heart. Do you want us to be over? Because I can handle that. I can't promise anything, and I'm certainly not saying that I love you, because that would be a lie. So which is it, James? Are you going to stay or go?" he questioned.

He understood he was being harsh, but he wanted to do this. "I'm tired of you showing me no emotion at all. I can't make you happy, so this is the only way around that. You weren't meant to be someone who doesn't show emotions." he said, grabbing James' wrist and pulling him in for a harsh kiss. "So show me emotion, and maybe I'll give up on telling you all of these things. Ignorance could really be bliss." he whispered into James' ear.

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[JAMES KENNEDY MACEN]

He listened closely to what the other boy was saying. James didn't know how to respond to, his anger was lost in a sea of doubt. Why didn't he just use James' body? Was he not good enough? What did other men have that he didn't? He understood what a woman had that he didn't, that was obvious, but men? Was it dominance? That was something he was never going to attempt. He accepted early on when he knew he liked boys that he would never be on the top in the relationship, it was just unheard of. James just didn't have it in him to order someone around or to do other things that were required of the top component. His gaze fell to the ground as he appeared to be examining the other male's shoes, not that it was totally out of character for him. James had a tendency to examine things, he was an observant person.

James glared once more at the other boy, "That's total bullshit."

[/b] he said his temper flaring once again, he may have been a complete doormat but he was an annoying one. "You're an asshole, you're always an asshole. How the hell is that going to make me happy?" His language was turning filthy, it was stuff that his mother would have slapped him across the face for. James felt his body being tugged towards his boyfriend, he wanted to fight it, but he could't. Liam still tasted like cigarettes, wonderful cigarettes. He moved his lips against Liam's if only for a moment, his temper was burning out quickly. His anger was being replaced with sadness and feeling that he needed to leave. Emotionless. So what if he liked hiding away what he felt, since when was that anyone's business, though he didn't voice that particular opinion. James frowned a little and hooked his fingers in the other boy's jeans. "Fine." he whispered quietly moving his lips to press against Liam's neck. James' sucked on the skin where his lips were pressed gently. He just wanted this to be over. So he'd have to show emotion to keep his heart intact, he could try that. In all honesty James had no idea what he was doing for the most part, he wasn't really into a lot of PDA.

"Why are you so mean to me?" he asked quietly in an innocent tone as he moved his lips up the skin of his neck. It was decided that he was going to try and be more emotional around the other man, and he was going to test this out further. Test it out, seduce Liam, something like that. He wanted the other boy to know that he could do as the other didn't think he could. He wasn't sure what he was getting into but he liked it so far.[/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/justify]

[WILLIAM KYLE MCCLAIN]

"Heh. I'm not an asshole particularly because I enjoy being an asshole, babe." he said, biting James' bottom lip, to the point where it would certainly leave a mark. Quite honestly, he couldn't care less if James could be dominant or not. Being pansexual, he enjoyed both positions equally, as long as everything was taken care of properly. In fact, he found James' non-ability to be dominant rather endearing. It was probably one of the reasons that he agreed to date James. Though he obviously hadn't been faithful to the relationship.

He chuckled lightly at James' actions, moving his face away form his neck. "Leave the marking to me, hm? I'll make sure this body will stay only mine." he said, winking at James. Even though he was a total asshole to those that he was dating, he was also possesive when it came to the physical relationship. "Hey, James. Are you a virgin?" he questioned, an odd grin spreading across his face. Of course, it wouldn't bother him if James wasn't a virgin. But if he was, it just made the night a lot more interesting. "So you'll show your emotions through this sexy body of yours? We can both sleep in my bunk tonight." he said, allowing his eyes to rake James' body in a suggestive mannor.

"Why? Because I need to know if you actually love me. I'm in awe of you, actually. Anyone else would have left by now. You're different. It's amazing. I think I'll enjoy you, you know that?" he questioned, leaning to nip and lick James' neck. "Well? Do you want to come back to the bus with me?" he questioned. Liam had an excellent sex drive, and could go for several rounds in a single night.

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[JAMES KENNEDY MACEN]

James whimpered quietly as Liam's teeth wrapped around the sensitive skin of his lip. A swirl of hormones and thoughts of what were to come were clouding James' logical mind. If asked he probably wouldn't even know which way was back to the bus. His inexperienced fingers crawled around the other's back painfully slow. His mind, as muddled as it was, he still comprehended what he said. Liam didn't like being an asshole? That didn't even make sense with his description, with how he felt about his behavior. He moved his arms to tighten around Liam's shoulder. It was beyond him what was happening to his body right now, it was nothing that he'd read about in any of his books. This was something he'd only heard about in sex-ed or in other's glory stories.

His eyes locked onto Liam as he was pushed away. Another whimper passed though his lips as he lost contact with his neck. He shuddered a little listening to him speak. James blushed a little at his question, was it that obvious that he was completely untouched. He swallowed a little and looked at him innocently. "Yeah." he breathed out quietly about his innocence in the world of sex. James nodded in agreement, sleeping in his bed would be okay. He knew what was going to happen while he slept in Liam's bed, he'd decided he didn't really have a choice. James wanted Liam for himself, not that it would ever happen, but he could dream. "Okay." he said again, his blush darkening with every word Liam spoke to him.

"I..." Did he love him? Could anyone love Liam? He frowned a little, was it love he felt? Oh God he was so confused. Another whimper escaped as Liam started on his neck. "Please." he begged quietly to his boyfriend, his arms tightened around him further. Their meeting had done a complete one-eighty.