THE WAY I AM.

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

photographer - twenty - indifferent - bisexual

freak, weirdo, yeah i know i've heard it all before. i act like i don't care about that stuff, in fact i act like i don't care about a lot of stuff, but i do. i care about a lot more than i let on. i build up walls to keep people out, it's simple. i don't really want people to break them down, i put them up for a reason so please don't try. underneath all of that i'm kind and caring, sarcastic and witty, happy and also a little bit depressed. a little bit depressed might be an understatement. i hate myself, i hate who i've become for the most part, and i hate who i am. i cut myself on my stomach, and if i can't find something to cut there i burn my tummy. there's scars, but i pass them off for other stuff, it's not like i wear bikinis. i'm a nerd, i used to be happy, and i've been said to have a kick ass smile. i'm not really a huge fan of violence, but it's good on a movie. real life violence isn't cool, just so you know. i like to read, i like to draw, i like to take pictures. i love music, and i'm still a virgin. i haven't kissed anyone, i haven't really had the chance. i have one brother that i love dearly, yeah that's pretty much it.



(so i can't see her having tons of besties. ;D but i'm open for most anything. ps. she's really secretive about her cutting so i doubt anyone'd figure it out. n____n)

[DAVID ANTHONY HARLEM]

I thought it over, and while I love both of my boys, I think if we were to pursue the plot we'd sort of talked about earlier, David would be useless. The problems Amanda has sound like big-people problems, like she'd need someone who could stand outside of themselves and what they want in order to see what she needs.

SO:

AMANDA/JON
Jon is borderline a-sexual, in the areas of romance. For him, sex and drugs tend to go hand in hand, and now that he's clean, he has to stay away from the things that tempt him. All the same, he CAN assume the role of a protective, somewhat possessive partner in a relationship. If these two entered some sort of 'save-her-from-herself' relationship, he'd definitely be the 'quiet, guiding hand' sort of a partner.

AMANDA/DAVID
David is still very much a little boy in his own mind. He's still dealing with grief, still tripping on drugs, still thinking of himself. He buries whatever hurts him under drugs and sex, so the act of love-making is a very intense deal for him. David likely couldn't save Amanda from herself. He might actually push her over the edge.

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jon&amanda
she'd be veryvery stubborn, she'd take on this i-don't-need-help attitude along with her apathetic normal one, but deep down she'd be screaming for someone to help her. but she'd never tell him that she hurt herself, so he'd have to sort of walk in on it and all that extremely fun stuff. right well it'd take her a while to trust that he wouldn't turn around and start making fun of her for him to really see who she actually was. also, possessive in what way and would this be just a friendship or a romantic relationship?

david&amanda
that sounds realistic. xD i don't think she'd ever trust him... well trust him for a very long while, longer than most people. i doubt she'd really let him near her. ><


/sorrythatsucked. i just woke up. XD

[DAVID ANTHONY HARLEM]

Jon&Amanda
Aaah. How can I explain better? Jon lost a lot of his ability to be conventionally romantic when he went through rehab. He doesn't participate in a relationship the way that most people his age do. He can be a little withdrawn. If you would like this to become a romantic coupling, I wouldn't be against it, it would just be a little less passionate than is considered the norm for this site.

As for the possessive side, I mean that his possessive nature is how he communicates romantic interest. He's not violently possessive; just overly protective. Once he starts looking out for someone, he looks at them like something that belongs to him (sort of like a gem) to protect and preserve. Maybe a little bit like they're his children.

Fixing people and focusing on other peoples' problems is sort of a coping mechanism for Jon. It helps him keep his mind off the drugs.

If he knew she was hurting herself, he'd probably go about it more like a father (not in a way that would make the relationship creepy) at first, and then try to slowly, gently show her that she was better than her perception of herself.


David&Amanda

David used to cut his arms up a lot, too. It's one of the reasons he has so many tattoos now. If he started a relationship with your character and somehow caught on to the fact that she was hurting herself, the only way he'd know how to help her (from his own experience) is sex, drugs and alcohol.

David is ALSO sort of possessive, but not in the good way. If he somehow thought another man was hitting on Amanda if they were in a relationship, he'd be a real shit-head to the guy.

I might add that I won't get upset if she breaks either Jon or Dave's hearts. Jon can handle and David's a bit of a manwhore.

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[ADDISON MICHEAL BROOKS]

jon&amanda
cx that's okay, as i said before it's up to you what happens, i'm open for absolutely anything when it comes to amanda. i don't exactly think she'd respond well if he was withdrawn, she'd be put off so i don't think a romantic relationship for these two would work out very well. i imagine she'd just not really like it, but i do think that a friendship would be very promising. i think she'd like his attitude and personality. that's amazing, i like that description of his possessive-ness. i like that and i think she'd like that too, it'd remind her of her brother back home.

david&amanda
oh. :c she'd be annoyed if he suggested drugs to her, she's quite straight edge when it comes down to it. she's really pretty innocent in a lot of ways and would never touch that stuff... that stuff being drugs and alcohol. sex would probably happen but after a while of being in a relationship and trusting him. that possessiveness would be nice, i think she'd like that in a strange way just to know that he cared enough.



i'm all over the board and that was rushed because i'm being forced off. xc i'm sorry.

[JONATHAN NATHANIEL CLARK]

That' cool. I'd be good with running the friendship between Amanda and Jon. If more develops, bless them both., We can also try at the relationship between her and David, if you want. I'm versatile.

[ADDISON MICHEAL BROOKS]

xD okay, friendships are always really fun . i think it'd be fun to try the david and amanda one, i think it'd be interesting if they fought a little bit, but still went back to each other or whatever. if he was doing drugs it'd scare the hell out of her too, which would also be really fun, but like i said earlier it's all up to you.

>< /snuck on

[JONATHAN NATHANIEL CLARK]

Alright. Sounds pretty sweet. Do you want to go in-depth on plotting or do you just want to start a game and see where it goes?

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

i'm good with either. n___n i can start a thread if you'd like, and if so with whom should i make it with?

[DAVID ANTHONY HARLEM]

Let's start the David/Amanda story! <3

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

okay! c: